Well, life is racing forth and I'm doing my best to keep up.
The end of May came and I found out that I'd be moving to Abilene by July 5th. I'd start my MIT course at Jason's Deli and stay there until March, when I would move to Wichita Falls to open the new store. June 4th rolls around and I go on a first date with a ridiculously awesome guy, who is just plain ridiculous. Michael. We spent our impromptu date sitting on the steps of the Tarrant County Courthouse in downtown Fort Worth. We walked all over downtown, had Jamba Juice, Marble Slab and just enjoyed each other. We sat on those steps for so long just talking and flirting and at one point, lying head to head. I was so comfortable with him but let him know my rules. No Love, No Relationship, No attachment. We agreed and moved on. We spent time at my favorite playground stargazing. After playing with his hair and being flirty, he finally rolled over and kissed me. :) I melted.
He's never had a girlfriend or anything, so not getting attached wouldn't be hard for him. He didn't want a relationship, so we're cool there too. We spent the entire month of June together. Watching movies, going to dinner, just kicking back at his place with his roommates, having fun. We both started to feel attached. It was rough. The end of the month came and I was getting my move together. He came to see me a few times, helped me clean my car even. Then, the day came that I had to actually leave. We discussed that we really were super attached and really wanted to try to make this work, though we weren't sure how to do so. After my schedule was decided, we figured out that I'd come out to Fort Worth every 2 weeks and when he had money, he'd come see me.
SPEED BUMP!!!!
I found an apartment here in Abilene. The next day, I was planning to go sign the lease and put my deposit down. Instead, I was asked to not do that. My big boss, let me know that they needed me to move to Midland at the end of my training. This meant that instead of working here in Abilene until March, I'd be leaving by the end of August/beginning of September. I told Michael and an instant sadness befell our conversation. He wasn't sure what to do or think about this new information. I wasn't aware of the fact that Midland puts me 5 hours from Fort Worth. I'm currently 2.5 hours from him. This was rough. He decided that we were too attached to not let this become something, but the distance will be too great for us to let it become something. So after a week of deliberating, we decided it was over. We would be friends, if we could. I was heading out to FW for the weekend and promised to leave him alone. After a friend date Saturday night, I messaged him. "I lied, I can't stay away" We met up at his place and talked. We hugged and kissed and each almost cried. We made the decision to stick it out until the second to last weekend of August. He'll be visiting me that weekend and we'll decide where to go from there.
So, he was telling someone he had a girlfriend (me) and then he'd told me about it. I asked him, "Oh really? A girlfriend huh?" "Oh crap!... you were supposed to miss that part." We are waiting until after his visit to decide on titles. So, our temporary titles are "Pseudo-Boyfriend" and "Quasi-Girlfriend". I love it. :)
The divorce hasn't gone through yet. Allen hasn't even begun the process, still. He threw me for a loop, when the day I started the MIT Program, he tells me he's going to start looking into it more seriously. That, of course, messed with my head. There's a lot going on right now, but I'm pushing on. I refuse to let this make me stumble. I refuse to fall on my face, all because he's pulling out all the punches.
This training is on it's 6th week and it's been so HARD! My catering manager is amazing! She's done more for me than I'd ever expected. When I worked in the deli the last time, I swore she wasn't a fan of mine. She's dedicated her time to helping me really excel with everything I'm doing. I'm so thankful for her. My District Manager is amazing. He has taken me under his wing and is really showing me compassion. He's working his magic to make me into an amazing leader/manager. I can't wait to see what I do with myself, after taking the advice of both he and the CM. I hope to be an amazing leader who inspires others to be better. I've never managed before, so this is a big risk they're taking. They have faith in me which is causing me to finally have faith in myself. I'm loving this feeling.
The next 3 weeks will be insane and rough, I'm ready for them (I think!). I've always been one for inspirational quotes, this is not something that will change anytime soon. I've covered my green folder (the folder with my tests, evaluations, questionnaires) in quotes that inspire me to be a better leader/better person. To remind myself that I'm doing this and I'm going to succeed. I think it's time to finally put my passion for people to the test. Here it comes!!! Here's looking at you kid! I'm going to rock it out there in Midland! I plan to inspire the people who work there, the way I've been inspired. I'm going to be exhausted, but it's going to be more than worth it.
LOOK OUT WORLD!!!!! HERE I COME!!!
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