Pardon Me

Today was a rather humbling. I was shown that I don't know everything there is to know about a particular position at work. It was the position I worked EVERY night for 8 months at the Deli. I thought I knew it! Turns out, day time Delco is a different beast from night time Delco. We do our finishing touches (bag lists and catering stuff) at the end of the night. During the day, you do it at the very beginning. I'm working the Delco position for the rest of the week so that I can have it down pat. It was definitely a humbling experience and I'm so very thankful for it. Jessica can come across as mean, but she's the sweetest person you'll ever work with, unless you cross her. Don't cross her.

Talking to Lowell, the DM, today was eye opening. Apparently my bosses see me as an inspiration. They feel I'll be inspirational for the girls in Odessa. Apparently, my age, divorce and desire to work and travel all mean a lot to the big bosses. They think that I'll be able to guide some of the girls out there and show them that it's possible. I'll be a strong and positive influence for them. I can't wait. :) Talk about a HUGE compliment!

I also found out that the owner thinks so much of me that he's not going to make me pay back the loan he gave me. WHAT?!?!?! I started crying when Lowell told me that. He gave me a big hug then I had to walk away. I went to the office and cried a little, lol. I felt slightly ridiculous but I'm SO grateful! I'm still in shock over it. :)

I have a friend, named Rob, who is miserable. He has nothing positive to say. He thinks my life so cushy and easy because good things, like the above, happen to me. What he doesn't understand is that it's all about the power of positivity! Yes, I get down. I get sad, I let things tear me up. Who doesn't?? However, the difference between he and I, is the fact that I don't stay down. I refuse to be angry and bitter all the time. I've had a lot of crap happen to me since I was a kid. Things adults shouldn't be exposed to. It happened and I'm alive, so I'm ok. I refuse to be upset by it. I'm not going to be bitter and make excuses for everything that goes wrong. I either made a mistake or it just wasn't meant to be. When good things happen, I'm shocked. I feel undeserving and appreciative to the -nth degree. Negative people live with a "Why me" attitude. "My car broke down! Why me?" "My job added a new duty, why me??" Positive people live with a different "why me" attitude. "I was given a raise? What did I do to be deserving of this?" "I met the man of my dreams. How did I get so lucky??" When bad things happen, they think: "Well, this is just one of those things that happens. It sucks, but new breaks are necessary" "It's part of the job I get paid to do. So be it!" It's all in how you see life. :) Good things happen to those who live positive lives. I'm a firm believer.

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